"I quit. Can I just quit? I'm DONE!"
I just wanted to see how that felt to say it outloud. I do feel better.
I have been a craaaazy woman about washing hands since Evie was born. We sterilize everything daily. I scrub Kya every time she walks in the door from school, church, whatever. So you can imagine the slow-motioned "NOOoooooo" as I found out Kya caught the H1N1.
NOT FUNNY.
at
ALL!
(I was so shocked all I could do was just take a picture)

I didn't find out until too late that the high school on our street had an outbreak of like
160 kids two weeks ago. Once I found out, I kept the girls home from church, etc.
This is how I found my poor girl tonight.
I heard this sweet little voice in the backseat of the car on the way home from the Dr:
(in almost a whisper)
"I can't believe I have H1N1. That is so terrible."

I've tried really hard not to make her feel like a walking toxin but I've been so worried about Evie catching it. I've had to separate the girls entirely (ok, have ANY of you tried doing that with a 5 yr old for more than an hour???)
I'm sanitizing EVERYTHING four times a day (from stairs, bathrooms, handles, light switches, to even my dishwasher handle and every cupboard - I'm GOING INSANE!)
It's like I can see the germs crawling everywhere and I have 12 sanitizers scattered around the house (which was 5 BEFORE I found out) that I make everyone use every 10 minutes. Probably more like every 7 minutes.
I'M EXHAUSTED!
.
The worst part was cancelling our big weekend in Utah for Evie's blessing
and Kya was heartbroken.
.
So...
we dressed up in random halloween costumes for fun,
watched the BYU football game in BYU clothes for fun,

decorated pumpkins during conference,

(here is the start of Hal's with Ev's little foot)

After we each take about 2 baths/showers a day and I've had the laundry going non-stop,
Hal says,
.
"I think I'm getting a sore throat."
.
NOOOooooooo
.
again, in slow motion.
.
I'm tired.
I don't even want to think about tomorrow.
(Am I allowed to complain???)